I am currently on vacation with K (my son) and my ex-husband. Yes, it even seems a little weird to me too. Sometimes I wonder if I take this co-parenting thing too far. I’ve never done this before. I gauge it by what feels right and what I think is best for my son. And K is having the best time. So there’s that.
My best friend asked “what will you guys talk about?” I had to chuckle because I’d probably ask a similar question. The truth is we will talk much like friends do, pretty much like we’ve always been especially during the last couple years of our marriage. Like friends with an emotional detachment. The biggest difference now is I don’t long for that deep emotional connectedness that should exist in a marriage. I’m so evolved! *sarcasm* Heh! But honestly, I wouldn’t have anything to do with this guy had we not had a child together. That, I know for sure.
This trip has definitely been a lesson. I don’t know of this is something I can continue to do down the line. My friend also asked if I think the ex-husband wants me back. The answer is no. Or maybe he does. But he also knows that I know him too well. And honestly, who wants to be with someone who knows you ain’t shit? Ha! And believe me, he ain’t shit in a “relationship”. And although he treated me like shit in our marriage I recognize his way of making good (if that’s possible) is being the best father he can be. And if nothing else, we are doing right by this lovely boy we’ve created.
